No more babies
I went to the OB today for my final post-natal check-up. I asked my OB about future pregnancies. She went over a rather daunting list of all the complications to my health and the baby’s during the pregnancy, birth, and recovery period. Basically, if I have an ounce of self-preservation and love for an unborn baby, I would avoid a pregnancy at all cost.
I’m sad. I also feel guilty because I wasn’t supposed to have even one baby, yet I’ve been blessed with a perfectly healthy son. I feel greedy. I feel heart-broken because I want at least 3-4 children. I LOVE being a busy mom and I just can’t imagine life any other way. I’m also sad for Nathan. I wanted him to grow up with 2 or 3 brothers and sisters, and I cannot give that to him. Sure there is surrogate and adoption, but why can’t things just be SIMPLE for once? No IVF, no mounds of paper work, just good old-fashioned conception.