My emotions are all over place. The grief is awful. It feels like…well, it feels like my baby just died. Only I know she wasn’t a full baby yet, just had the potential to be. So why do I feel like this? Is it hormones or what?
To get pregnant after years of infertility only to miscarry is like a slap in the face. To top it all off, my body is still in the process of miscarriage so I am reminded constantly of my loss. I just wish so badly that I could undo the loss. Just close my eyes and when I open them again I’ll still be pregnant and the baby will be safe and warm where she belongs. I hate this. I mean I really, really hate this.
It hasn’t even been a week yet, so I’m giving myself plenty of slack and space to be an emotional wreck. I know most of it is just my hormones trying to get back in balance. Sighs.